I feel I’m living with a tiger.
She controls me when I’m alone. She waits for everyone to leave, then she attacks. That’s why I try to be with friends, but it feels like they are my hostages. When they are there, she lays down in a corner, and I feel almost normal.
But sometimes she attacks them too, and I feel that I put my friends in danger, while trying to protect myself. Therefore I stay alone more often.
When I sleep, she sleeps.
She usually likes listening to music.
Some things that look great to others sometimes annoy her a lot. She’s quite unpredictable. That would be OK if she weren’t so strong and dangerous.
I don’t want to spend the rest of my life trying to distract her enough to have a few minutes alone.
I don’t want her to be in control.